“If Not Me, Who? If Not Now, When?”

I finally had a chance to watch Emma Watson give her United Nations speech to launch the He For She campaign.

“HeForShe is a solidarity movement for gender equality that brings together one half of humanity in support of the other of humanity, for the entirety of humanity.”

Emma’s speech was moving and empowering, and just another reminder about the privileged life I lead, and how there are millions of women out there who are not as lucky as I am. I will admit that I am not someone who has a strong awareness about the treatment of women and the inequalities that still exist in other parts of the world. But I want to pay more attention. And I want men and women to have equal access and equal rights. I agree that rates of pay should be equal no matter the gender of the individual doing the job. And I believe that men and women should both be allowed to be strong-willed, forceful, and determined as well as sensitive, emotional and passive. I believe in respect for all.

Please watch and listen to Emma’s speech and take a moment to reflect and think about the question,

“If not me, who? If not now, when?”

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And look, even Harry Styles from One Direction is supporting He For She. 😉

http://www.heforshe.org

Dear Journal: It’s Time To Focus On…

…living in the moment.

Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about how I can relax my brain, stop over thinking and worrying about everything, and just enjoy where I am right now. So, I’ve been quietly observing those around me and doing a bit of reading and research on how I can help myself think and worry less.

What I’ve come up with is that I really need to focus hard on just living in the moment. For example, I need to stop looking at apartments for rent because right now, in this moment of my life, I’m not financially ready to move out on my own. It’s one thing to look at houses and dream about what I’d love to own one day. It’s another thing entirely to be scouring the For Rent ads weekly to see what’s out there. Another example? I constantly wonder about my career path. Am I making the right choice now? Will a library career be fulfilling? Or will I always wonder if the career I choose is the right one? Answer. Stop worrying about my job and second guessing my career choices, and just focus on what I am doing now. My current position is one where I am not always busy. My level of busyness depends on the number of patrons in the library and whether they need assistance (hence why right now I am able to write a blog post…clearly not a busy library). So, sometimes that creates WAY TOO MUCH time for my mind to wander which just stresses me out because I have that time to think about the before mentioned examples, as well as my relationships. But, I need to be in the moment at these times too, and that might mean looking at book websites, orreading the news, pinning on PinTerest, or simply reading. I of course should also focus more energy on the patrons, and work on providing even better service to them.I am hoping focusing on living in the moment will create a higher level of peace in my mind, and maybe I’ll be able to just relax a little bit more.

So, my personal goal is to live more in the moment. I’m going to worry less about how my life will be tomorrow, a year from now, two years from now, and even ten years from now. When it comes time to look for my own house, I’ll look for my own house. When it comes time to find a new job, like when my MLIS is done, I’ll do that. But right now, I’m not going to drive myself crazy thinking about it now. I have a great life right now, and I know I have so much to be thankful for, so it’s time to really focus on enjoying the present more, and worrying about the future less. One can’t predict the future, and nothing in the future is certain anyways, so it’s time to spend less of my mind power worrying about it, or wanting to fast forward through it.

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The Cosby Show

Today I finished watching all eight seasons of The Cosby Show. This is a show I have grown up loving, as I would always watch reruns on television whenever I could. Now, with the advantages of the internet and streaming tv shows, I was able to finally watch all eight seasons of episodes, from beginning to end. Bill Cosby as Dr. Huxtable has always made me laugh, and I think he is my favourite “tv dad”. I find his humour at times not far from the humour of my own father. While I haven’t always found the Huxtable kids personally relatable, I have enjoyed watching the characters of Sondra, Denise, Theo, Vanessa, Rudy, and Olivia grow up and encounter new experiences. The family dynamic of the show is admirable, and it makes me see the value in having a close, yet big family. The Cosby Show has made me laugh, and it has made me cry, and I don’t think there has been another comedy series quite like it.

Here are some clips of my favourite moments.

As I have mentioned before, I love lip syncing videos, so when the Huxtable family performed this song in Season 2, Episode 3, I loved it. Especially Rudy’s part.

There was the time that Rudy’s fish died and the Huxtable family held a funeral…

Then there was Kenny from next door, who grew up as Rudy’s best friend.

Rudy and Kenny had pretty interesting arguments too..

And then there was Olivia. I hope I have a child who is as spunky and lively as her one day.

Anyways, there were lots of great moments in the episodes over the years, but this clip pretty much sums up the wonder that was The Cosby Show

#throwbackthursday!

Throwback to when this music video was released 15 months ago, and how much it made me smile. This song is so catchy and it definitely helped me dance through my last few months in England! Plus, I love watching people lip sync and all of the celebrities featured are entertaining to watch.

Enjoy!

Dear Journal…

I’m busy, and I know that is not just unique to me, because everyone is busy and everyone has different things going on in their lives. But if this is a taste of the rest of my life to come, I think I’m going to have to get stronger and tougher, because right now if I think any further than 24 hours in the future about what I need to do and my schedule, I start to get a very anxious feeling in the pit of my stomach.

Now, it really is only 2 weeks into my new schedule that includes juggling a part-time Masters, working about 25 hours a week, socializing, and having time to myself. So I am optimistic that I will get better at handling it all, and the overwhelming feeling will dissipate. But I can’t help thinking to myself, am I taking on too much? Do I have too much going on? What can I do to make myself feel better?

I can’t give up working, and actually I still want to work more. I want to be able to afford to move out of my parents home and support myself. I want to regain the feeling of independence that I have lost since moving back in with my parents. Now, I love my parents and my parents do so much for more – probably more than I deserve but it is always hard to go home again after being away. I look forward to the day that i can get my own place, so that I can decorate and furnish it as I want, come and go as I please, and ultimately have control over the property. I am very grateful for all that my parents provide for me, and how they have adjusted to having an adult child living with them (My mom has gotten very good at not asking too many questions, and I know she’ll read this, so Mom you are doing great!). But that will never stop me from wanting to be out in the world on my own. So, because of the importance of making money and all that it can provide for a person, I can’t give up working.

I won’t give up school, because even though I have had a moment of “Why am I going back to school again?”, I know that ultimately it will lead me into a career field that I want to be in, and that will be worth all of the time and energy I put into accomplishing this goal. However, I do have to let go of the idea that going back to school will give me new social opportunities and allow me to get involved, because honestly I don’t have much time for new friendships, or to do extra curricular opportunities. I can  however meet people in class, so that I have developed relationships so I don’t have to sit alone and we can discuss class work, or do school projects together.

I also have the most amazing friends who I wouldn’t trade for anyone in the world. Denise, Rebecca, Christine, Kelly, Helen, Erika – you are ladies that I always want to have in my life. I just wish we were all in the same city so that we could hang out more and things didn’t have to be planned so far in advance. But it is what it is, and what I have learned is that no matter where any of us go or what any of us do, the friendships I have with you will last. ❤ 

Gail, there are many days that would be less wonderful if it were not for you. I’m so grateful to have you in my life, you are my number one fan, and it’s reassuring to know that you will always have my back. Our friendship is special, and not everyone gets it. When I try to explain it to outsiders, it often takes them a while to understand. I mean how do you explain the fact that we have similar brains and that we just “get” each other? Simply stated, you are someone I admire, and someone who I feel admires me. You make me want to be even more amazing than I already am. Plus, you make me laugh, you listen, you advise, and at any moment you can break out into song – just like me!

I’ve also started dating someone, and I’m not ready to open up that can of worms too much, but he’s someone that I want to get to know and to spend time with, so I will make time for that. He’s busy too working on his PhD and trying to accomplish his own goals, so we can relate on that level and spending time with him does allow me to relax and unwind, so I want to foster that relationship to see what it could be. I know he’s reading this too, so I’m gonna leave this topic here and hope that I haven’t totally freaked him out…lol.

I can’t give up time to myself, because Katie time is very important to me, as is personal time to anyone. I love to read, watch tv, blog, investigate new music, and just relax. I just feel in the past 2 weeks there hasn’t been as much time for that so I’m slowly starting to go crazy but I guess that’s also adult life. It’s not going to chance once I start working full time in my career and/or when I’m married, or raising children. So I think I’m just gonna have to get used to not having so much time to myself, and figure out how to make 15 minutes alone give me the same relaxing, wonderful feeling that a couple hours used to give.

I know I’ve said this before, but ultimately it’s about finding a way to juggle everything and keep all the balls in the air – to find a balance with all of the aspects of my life. Right now, I’m not too sure how well it’s going, but I hope I figure it all out soon. Because there is nothing in my life that I want to give up.

So, if there is anyone out there who reads this who has advice on how to keep it all going, I welcome it. To those who are close to me, please just be patient with me as I will always do the best I can to spend time with everyone, do what I promise to do, and be everywhere that I need to be.

Not far in the back of my mind is how amazing my life truly is, and how lucky I am, because it really could be much, much, worse. So, on that note, I leave you all with this.

Hello Goderich!

On Sunday, September 6th, I set off on a mini road trip adventure to Goderich, a small tourist-type town along Lake Huron, and a place in Ontario that I had never visited before.

The weather was beautiful, and the drive was smooth (with the exception of construction on the road to Mitchell…I can still feel the vibrations!). We headed out away from Gail & Rob’s place and our journey took us through the towns of Mitchell (home of Howie Morenz, from the Montreal Canadiens 1923-1934 – seeing the sign puts a huge smile on Rob’s face), Seaforth, and Clinton. Clinton is town I have visited before, as it does share it’s name with my brother, so it is a welcoming place to visit in my family’s eyes.

We made a pit stop in Seaforth on the drive for a bathroom break where I had a confusing experience with the front doors of the Tim Hortons…

but, we made it to Goderich. We continued to do a driving tour of the town, and Gail showed me the famous Ben Miller Inn, where rooms are about $400 a night but it is a beautiful, quaint place to stay and apparently worth the price! (Wink wink* to my future husband, if you’re out there). 

We decided to have an early dinner as we were all hungry, so we ate at a local favourite called Skippers where I had a fresh perch dinner, and treated myself to Cherry Pie for dessert. It was all pretty yummy! 

Then, we drove down to the beach. 

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Goderich has a boardwalk that goes along the beach, which I walked along.

 

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I stopped to perch on some rocks just off the boardwalk and stare out at the ocean. It was a beautiful view and the sun was shining so bright!

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I would definitely love to come back to the beach here next summer, and spend the afternoon on the beach and along the boardwalk. The town of Goderich seems really cute too and I’d love to have time to go into some of the local shops. 

We headed home from Goderich at about 7:30, with a slight detour due to inaccurate remembering of the proper local highway to take back home so that we could pass a certain attraction in Clinton on the way back.

That attraction was The School on Wheels, a railcar that was used in the 1920’s to 1960’s to teach Canadian children in Northern Rural communities. The teacher would live on the railcar and it allowed them to be accessible and educate children in isolated communities. Here is a bit more about the School Car, and more information can be found at http://www.schoolcar.ca

 

 

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A little blurry, but at least this proves I was there!

A little blurry, but at least this proves I was there!

 

For me, this was interesting to see because if teaching was still how it was then, with less technology involvement and a stronger focus on simply reading, writing, and arithmetic, then I may still be looking at a career in teaching. This is the type of teaching I idolized growing up. I was inspired by fictional teachers like Anne of Green Gables, who taught in one room school-houses and technology as we know it today did not exist. I find the teachers of the School Car to be inspirational too, and I value their place in history. Thanks Gail & Rob for including this on the mini adventure and for introducing me to the town of Goderich. 🙂